urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee thedevotee thedevotee 2007-05-16T01:11:40Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:3017 2007-05-16T01:11:40Z 2007-05-16T01:11:40Z THe almighty GOD, Princess Sierra, took time out of here precious day to kindly acknowledge my presence, I have missed her so much, my life is empty - I was created by her to live as she made me - without guidance and control life feels empty, I love my GOD - need forever. She is all powerful, a control like energy force field you cant escape from, that surrounds me. You must obey. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:2815 2007-02-17T22:21:28Z 2007-02-17T22:21:28Z my GOD has commanded I be tortured, have been kneeling on dry long-grain rice for over 30mins on a wood floor, it is unbelievably painful, its hurts so much, tears rolling down my cheeks but i know must suffer for Goddess, just makes it even harder to take. But this is soo hard to take - Goddess has been so harsh with me, the worst punishment i have ever suffered for her. I can feel each individual grain sticking in my boney knees and shins.....each like a dagger now, each one punishing for GOD, each one a reminder of her power, GOD must be obeyed....If only I could do better, had more money, could please my GOD.....almost in trance from pain, can sense GOD over me now, laughing...I will do better, I must live for my GOD urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:2496 2007-01-05T18:49:16Z 2007-01-05T18:49:16Z Friday night and i`m in all aone again....have nothing, no money, no friends, all i can think of is my GOD, beyond my controller is nothing she is everything, i obey without question and crave a life of absolute servitude....freedom is liberating urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:2203 2006-12-27T05:07:11Z 2006-12-27T05:07:11Z Something has happened to my mind, its out of my control....i`ve changed in some way. I think about my GOD constantly, cant sleep, need to worship, work harder, find some way to make her happy....got worse when she was away.....I cant fight anymore.....I need acceptance....omg urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:1984 2006-12-10T23:33:57Z 2006-12-10T23:33:57Z I was late with my monthly payment and my GOD was not happy, but have no money left for bills so internet was cut off. I love my GOD, my first thought is always her welfare - i must think before everything i do and purchase, what would Goddess do? what does she need? do i really need this?.....my life is hers now, i have no existance outside of her wellfare. being away from her just makes the craving grow even more, i cant explain it, its out of my control urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:1594 2006-10-31T01:55:27Z 2006-10-31T01:55:27Z my GOD has ignored me all month, been so desperate for my controller, my GOD, but had no money, nothing to serve her, craved soo much, spent whole month praying for payday. Soon as it came she took her money, what she deserved, what was rightfully hers, i small glimps of her, momnet of her time is like everything to me. I live in constant hope, fear, craving for Princess urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:1437 2006-09-21T03:26:34Z 2006-09-21T03:26:34Z msub craves to be reprogrammed, needs it, its my turn now. Resistance crumbles, i know it....its my turn now, msub is broken and remade in GODs image, as she demands, i want to live ONLY for GOD nothing else matters. i praise GOD, i suffer for GOD, i worship GOD, i live only for GOD.Nothing else means anything, i must live with nothing and noone only my GOD, her pleasure and comfort is paramount. This is the word of the lord. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:1128 2006-09-01T19:29:45Z 2006-09-01T19:29:45Z my GOD has programmed mfag to obey, and am completely obedient, i was built my GOD. my GOD instructs me to go rent gay porn and spend evening watching it on kness in honour of my GOD. mfag will goto gay bar to find cock to suck for his divine rular, mfag is programmed to enjoy big cocks and suck to the best of ability so GOD may earn money from renting mfag. mfag hears and obeys always. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:1016 2006-08-28T18:14:15Z 2006-08-28T18:14:15Z Princess Sierra my GOD, my rular has kindly accepted bhy measly monthly offering from my (now her) paycheck. My life from now on is to be focused entirely on her, i will live with only and allowance and devotee everything to her welbeing and happiness. Perhaps over time i might be sold or rented for my GODs profit, this is something in which i have no say. I feel i`m falling deeper and deeper into her world, i can sense myself in a cage, with invisible bars that i can only feel, trapped. There is no way out urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:680 2006-07-05T06:16:40Z 2006-07-05T06:16:40Z my GOD and divine ruler has ordered I update this journal. I worship her as my GOD, all powerful, who cannot be resisted and must be obeyed. She kindly sent me new pics of her immaculate beauty which leave me a helpless, jibbering mess in their wake. I need her, craving just grows strong, I cant live without her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:thedevotee:355 2006-05-31T17:26:51Z 2006-05-31T17:26:51Z This is my first entry as ordered by the Goddess, Princess Sierra who is my God and Master. She has taken me for life training and redevelopment into something of use to her, I am scared and very grateful.